September 5 2001

9/5/2001

Master says when he puts His collar around my neck things are going to change. He says there will be consequences if I don’t obey his orders. Just the mere thought of him saying these things makes my body quiver in anticipation.

I should give a little bit of history before going any further. It’s been 8 years since Steve and I have been married, we have 3 children and 2 dogs, the whole 9 yards.  We married very shortly after the end of my Book 1 journals. We met online and married very quickly after. It was less than 4 months of living together before we made it official.

We have lived a very “vanilla” life. We’ve done lots of traveling and have spent time building our life and family together. He is a wonderful father, husband, and friend. He has been an amazing lover, always paying close attention to my wants and needs.

After living with my submissiveness buried for years, I finally took the plunge and talked with him honestly about my feelings. I was absolutely horrified that he would think I was disgusting. I was preparing myself for him to be totally turned off. I thought for sure he would go running when I told him that I needed him to dominate me in all aspects of my life.