Dec 1

December 1

Every day you smile at one person just to see the joy on a persons face.You also get the feel the warmth in your hard from giving, even if it is something small. There are little joys and miracles in life that we so often forget to stop long enough to even take notice. Just for the future reference of this month. I do not do holidays very well. I am often referred to as the grinch in my family gatherings. This year I get to go to a Christmas party for my Master's job. I would say about 50 % of the people going to this dinner either think, know, or want to think that I am crazy. It ought to be interesting to say the very least. 

November 29

Well, it seems that I failed miserably at my challenge for the month of November.  The weeks have gone from good to worse and the only hope I have is that my Daddy can help me through. My head is spinning in so many circles, trying to figure out what I want. What do I want for me, for my little babies, for my Daddy? It feels like I am heading into a path of self discovery. I am just hoping that I do not lose my family along the way. I keep losing things and forgetting things. Making lists is useless because they either get tossed or turned into beautiful artwork by my 2 year old. Finding a normal pen or pencil in this house is like searching for treasure. All of O/our notes and to-do list have been written in crayolas. Wrestling is over now and its time to lure Daddy upstairs. Good night A/all. xoxo

Thanksgiving Weekend

After a long emotional week, I did not even realize thanksgiving was upon us. Our previous holidays have included large numbers of friends since being away from home and traveling. It was quite different to have just one guest at the house for dinner. The children were well behaved, and Master cooked dinner.
Thinking about it now, I would have much rather had our large "family" sitting around the table, spilling things  and having 12 kids running underfoot.

It seems that Master and I have quite a bit to learn about ourselves before we can even think about extending our family. Until, W/w have our own M/s relationship running smoothly and naturally, bringing in another person is not the best idea I would say. Until, Daddy and I learn the difference between discipline and play we have a long way to go.